Monday, June 6, 2011

Amore Phobia

Amore Phobia
081605
glenmore bacarro

It happened when she first love.
The man she longed, who lived in pride.
She showed the love beyond comparison.
She gave it all with all decision.

The selfless girl craved the man’s love.
‘Till she heard the first words of grudge
*“Nikuttak ku so’ya…kalami!” said he.
She just smiled though wounded deeply.

That was the first time she heard his voice.
Those words he said though in no poise.
To her, those where the words of love.
To him, the words of curse.

Till then the girl gave up.
For she knew it was over.
She stopped loving but continued to live.
For she has nothing more to give.


*“Nikuttak ku so’ya…kalami!”
ibanag line (dialect from the North) which means "Sipain ko pa yan...malandi!" / "I would have kicked her...flirt!"


Death of a Heart

Death of a Heart
062010
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I’m not dead. 
I breathe.
But I’m not sure...
 I’m alive.
My heart’s wounded 
but it beats.
 Exhausted 
and numb.
I am feeling the cold.
Within,
And it burn.
But I feel no pain.
I feel no pain.
I am not dead.
I breathe.

Truth
Pain
Broken

Him
I
Together
In lies,
Lie.

Shattered

I’m not dead. 
I breathe.
But I’m not sure,
I’m alive.
I feel nothing.
I’m numb.

Love
Truth
Everything

Dark
Soulless
Death
Painless

Shattered

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Birthday Wish (120808)
121208
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The Sun kisses the winter rush.
Warming my heart with a silent hush
This special day before the season’s lush
Alas! Another year of loneliness had passed.

The Wind celebrated life with me.
Lulling the pain for long I’d bear.
Making my heart to have reasons to cheer
To myself more and to withdraw all fears

Before the Dusk clothes the horizon
As Sun lass bid his farewell alone.
I wish I could hold him before he goes too.
Because I fear the dark much more than he do.

The Stars shared the Night with me.
But the Moon shone his face and blinded me.
The truth outshines all lies and fantasies.
The Love I wish I have can never be with me.

Before Midnight maiden closes my day.
With Wine and Roses she came to lays.
She greeted me with her gentle whisper.
“Happy Natal Day! dear Sir.”

With a broken heart I dared to kiss.
And beg for one and a final wish.
Midnight Dear, my ever loyal friend;
Please give me more time
And let this moment extend.
For I need to celebrate too, I should be.
What heartless Moon gifted to me.”

With a painful smile but with a gentle voice,
“Oh lonely heart I wish I could.
For I knew, even without you saying.
That, Dear, you want to celebrate.
The birth of another heartbreak.”

And then Fair Dawn came – with pity.
She gently kisses and offers her gift to me.
With tears I accepted what I’ve bargained.
For I know its enough – simply enough.

Time turned back from when he came.
Together we kissed till sunset hailed.
We made love when darkness collides.
Love was bared on that moonless night.

We mould forever with each other’s arms.
Designed what is perfect and what is fine.
In the land where only our hearts dictate,
No worries or tears; no pain or heartbreaks.

Then with a bitter smile, with tears I wake.
The Sun shines, maiden Dawn fades.
With her gift sweet Slumber and Dream.
But together they took the love I deemed.

The Sun smiles now with his belated gift.
He came to show what Tomorrow can give.