When a River Meets another River

My first vacation to Pamplona after almost 3 years,

I broke my promise to never return to this place not until I graduated.

When a River Meets another River

January 24, 2007

STR; January 01, 2007

When a river meets another river…

It will create a pool.

Where the water flows in contrast;

And to where the waves dance,

In a disrhythmic tunes!

The pressures created in friction;

It feels amazingly cold.

To where it freezes;

Those unlucky wishes:

It filed the rough rocks.

Breaks it into polished stones,

And where the rusty debris,

Formed pebbles on the shores.

From a distance still you can see.

Mirrors beneath…

From its shallow depth,

The unfathomable daze!

On its elemental force,

Where these two rivers met,

A bond was created

That can’t be lost till the end of time.

When a river meets another river…

It can break promises.

To the water where memories flow,

And with the waves,

Are the forgotten thoughts:

The past will blend on today.

And the future with yesterday:

The current may pull back the time.

Or make the present to redirect.

Beyond its shallow shadow

Beauty and love lies.

You can see those frozen memories.

Serve as a pensive for the heart.

Eyes been burned by tears.

Melted and refueled the desires.

Desires to come back,

And to meet the other half;

Anger may have been polished to vindication.

But it breaks down into fair redemption.

Had been kissed by the waves of forgiveness,

And washed away the curse of grudges!

“The Love of Siam”

“The Love of Siam”

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“I am Tong”

“I can’t be with you

To be your boyfriend,

But that doesn’t mean

That I don’t love you.”

So sweet are those words

Yet bitter to taste.

For love can’t keep us together.

We are destined to part.

Reality hurts.

That even when love transcends

Through gender and sex

Reasons are made.

Whenever I dare touched your face.

I must go on to life.

Shattered and broken inside.

Blame me dear Mew!

For doing what they thought was right.

“I am Mew”

I made this song

Especially for you!

Since the day you left

You carried part of me.

I found no true love.

Here you are now with me.

Hearing the song I play.

Written in love by my thirsty heart,

Words whispered by your rosy lips.

Before it touches mine!

We live in the song

I made – you created.

Since the day you came back.

You gave the missing note

Of this ever fearsome heart!

Now you’re saying goodbye.

Infront of you I’ll cry not.

You showed how much you love me.

With a bitter smile, Tong I thank thee.

“Ballad to Tong & Mew”

Love comes in no gender they say.

But here comes the irony.

Because in a world of morality.

Love belongs for a she and a he.

Two hearts filled with love.

But they are destined to be apart.

Now tell me what you considered fair?

In this unjust world we hail.

For a moment let reasons be wasted.

Give just to what is wrong.

Let reality at the moment be freed.

Allow these two hearts, let love to keep.

Let Tong kiss Mew once again.

And let him lie on his chest.

Let them taste every blissful promises.

Of the love many detests.

Let Mew sing his song for Tong.

Let it not stop extend it forever long.

For when you hear his sweet melodies,

They are together in a fulfilled dream.

Ask no questions, say no lies.

Let just love be the only reason.

And let the moment be theirs alone.

Keep them together if not in dream,

Then maybe in this song!

Because if only in this moment.

That they can have each other,

Where love is true and just fair!

Maybe…

Just maybe…

Tong won’t leave.

Mew won’t let go.

“The Love of Siam”

Wiwisit Hiramyawangkul (Mew)

Mario Maurer (Tong)

Thai Film

She Said He Said

She Said He Said

06/16&20/10

Your name, considered sweeter than the sweetest Rye.

But now I can’t utter it sweet without lie.

My heart gone cold, Darling I don’t know why.

Maybe for now you should loosen our tie.

Believe me; I’ve done all with my best.

But maybe I have done it carelessly.

Coz my love had simply slipped away.

And without guilt I can’t even close my day.

With you I can’t find now the heat.

My heart can’t even have that skipped beat.

We laugh just like the way we used to.

But the humor is lost before you do.

Forgive me but I’m asking for space.

To breathe, to fly and to lay my last ace;

It may hurt I know but soon we’ll heal.

And maybe fate will settle our deal.

I can’t love you the way I used to.

But believe me in my heart love is still there too.

I’m lost or maybe I’m just tired.

For keeping the heat of our vanishing fire.

Don’t think that I never loved you.

Because I know I did more than I can do.

My heart’s confused, in vain.

Loosing you I can’t even find so much pain.

And that what hurts, my beloved.

I fear the ease of loosing the one I have.

For now let’s take our time.

Because maybe tomorrow,

Again you can call me mine.

I am once your one special ‘Private Joe’.

I’m the ‘knight in shining armor’ who bowed low.

But why my dear you’ve gone so cold?

Where is the princess who never looses her hold?

In your eyes I saw now some lies.

To loosen our tie, you’re asking me to die.

You should have known I’ve done my best too.

I held you a little bit tighter, I admit, yes I do.

But with all the guilt I blame you not.

From the mistakes I’ve done I take the cuff.

Don’t leave me alone because you’re my better half.

You’re the one who changed me, the woman I love.

You’re asking for space, I had given you my world.

It hurts; I’m left shattered crumpled to fold.

You want to be free, to breathe, I had given my life.

Without your love, my home I’ve nowhere to hide.

Why let fate defines our deal? Is this game for real?

I can’t win without you, because your love can heal.

Why can’t you love me now the way you used to?

Did I give too much or did I give a bit too few?

I know you had loved me but why your love died?

I never asked you for more, just please don’t tire.

And if you’re confused, in vain and was stranded,

Darling I’m pained, broken and deeply wounded.

You felt the ease because I’d taken the entire blow.

I can’t bear seeing you, taking the pain you caused.

I’m wishing Darling that today is tomorrow.

Let doubts be cleared and give me a chance.

I promise that for the second time,

It’ll be a sweeter mine.

Hubaran Mo Si Adan

"...tama na ba? Kuntento ka naba sa nakikita mo?

sapat na ba ang kahubdang ito upang mapuno ko

ang iyong pagkauhaw sa katotohanan?

Katotothanang ikaw mismo ang may pamantayan...

pamantayang salungat sa aking pag katao.

Nakikita mo ba ang katawang ito,

ang tanda ng aking pagkalalaki?

Sapat na ba ang  nakikita ng iyong mga mata

upang husgahan ako at ipagkanulo ang aking katauhan?

Sapat na bang dahilan ang iyong nakikita upang

ipamukha sa akin na ako ay instrumento sa isang imoral na mundo?

Aling karapatan ba ang pwede mong iamot sa nahusgahan kong pagkatao

ang pwedeng magpalaya sa akin at sa mga katulad ko?

Magagawa mo pabang hubaran ang hubad ko nang katawan

upang masilip ang tunay na ako,

at ang kakarampot na pag-asa sa masikip at madilim kong mundo?

 Pag-asang ako din ay matanggap ng lipunang pinamumugaran

ng mga tulad mong pinagpala?

Hindi ba't iyon ang mahalaga,

kung ano ang nasa kaibuturan ng aking hubad na puso?

Pagmasdan mo ang aking kahubdan, sapat na ba ang nakikita mo?" 

-"Hubaran Mo Si Adan"

gb! 

Yosi Break

"...ganito kasi yon, parang nagyoyosi ka lang. kung sino ang tumutulong sayo upang hindi mo mahitit lahat ng nikotina…yun bang filter? Diba, sa bawat stik na hinihitit mo, sa bawat buga ay nadiyan siya para harangin ang nakakasama sa katawan mo? ‘Di ba pagkatapos maubos o pag nahitit mo na lahat yung yosi itatapon mo siya bilang upos upos? At hindi lang yon, hindi ba’t pagkatapon at ‘pag hindi ka nakuntento aapakan at yuyurakan mo ito hindi ba? Wala sa hinagap ng iyong utak ang makunsensya hindi ba? Dahil alam mong iyon ang nararapat. Dahil ginawa siya para dun, ginawa siya ng walang pagtatampo at galit sa sinulang handa siyang itapon...
Parang isang taong nagmamahal at hindi minamahal lang di yan…hindi siya nangangarap na magsasama kayo hanggang sa huli, dahil alam niyang pagkatpos siya gamitin ay mawawalan na siya ng silbi. Tama na sa kanya na sa bawat hitit at buga at ligayang hatid ng iba…ay nakailang ulit din niyang nadama ang init ng iyong mga labi."

-Yosi Break
gb!

Tatlo Kaming Nilikha

Sa simula…nilikha Niya si Adan mula sa alabok, at mula sa kanya ay hinugot si Eba. 

Dahil sa kasalanan sila ay itinakwil sa Paraiso…

Hindi ako produkto ng isang pagkakamali, nakalimutan mang itala sa kasaysayan ang aking pagsilang, isa lang ang sigurado ako…na ako ay nilikha Niya ng Siya’y napag-isa sa Paraiso. Nilikha niya ako ng buo at hindi Niya hinugot si Eba mula sa akin. Yan ang dahilan kung bakit dalawa ang aking katauhan…hindi ako kulang, hindi ako hati, hindi ako isinumpa!…bagkus ako ay buo, kumpleto at ako ay tulad din nila, nilikha upang lumigaya at hindi upang itatwa.

-Tatlo Kaming Nilikha
gb!

Once Upon A Time

...no mater how we try to 4get d past 4 as long as we see things that remind us of it, even just like a flicker of light. A whisper of a breath, a whisp of a hair and a gentle breeze of d wind. We're on a nostalgic facade of every shatered dream. We tend to deny every pain it brings, and fake a smile, tho wthin us is a breaking heart and d bitersweet of “what ifs” and unuttered 4giveness...

indeed, we are all but just a product of our past.

-once upon a time
by gb!

Death of a Promise

...you told me isn't it? That despite what is ideal, your love transcends beyond physical attraction... beyond gender, beyond what people believed...beyond us. You and me, you said...but where are those smiles and sweet promises goes? Will your goodbye kisses quench d thirst I'm into? Tell me for the last time b4 I cease to believe. That what you have said are real, though by this time, we knew they are nothing but lies.

-the death of a promise
by gb!

I Dreamed a Dream

You held my hand...touched my face. I saw love in your eyes, so blissful so true. I tasted love wth your kiss, your breath so sweet. I cried in joy everytime you whispered my name...and cried more when you uttered your "I love yous"...

You're a dream come true, but still, a dream out of my reality.

-i dreamed a dream
by gb!

Bed & Pillows

...he sleeps like a child, curled comfortably. He drifted in oblivion and in his face is the innocence of a man I never thought I found. I watched him in bliss as he breathe in silence. My heart beats fast as I gently touched his face...I feel so contented and lulled.

I’m inlove and I’d rather gave up everything just to have that one breath of his hair...and to whisper my secret “I love you” again as he gently dreams.

-bed and pillows
by gb!